Beautiful Disaster.

YWednesday, January 03, 2007
i have no single sixth idea why.
despite knowing that you've moved on..
i still miss you.

despite knowing about your past,
i still miss you.

i don't know why im still thinking about you.
trying to let you go.
when it should have been easy.

i don't know why i miss the childish talks we had.
the complaints abt how "fat" we were.

i don't know why im so dumb.
i cant fathom the reason behind this "thing"
thats going on inside me.
i don't wana name it hope.

i dont know what i know about this.

BUT i know i LOATHE premier silver cabdrivers.
cant believe i got assaulted by an effin female cabdriver.
yes elly, yes has..im still shaken. =/
_callous_ was here with you at 11:36 PM .

Emylin
The Ride

this life is all about loving and losing. sacrificing and hurting.
being dissappointed in just about anything including urself.

this is life in my eyes.

- an unbearable excruciating painful hurt and experience that kills.
life in living is like death in dying.
where u live with a purpose and u die with a cause
all of which reasons hurt
and none of which will give u the happiness that u deserve.

yes i am fickle and yes i am a hardcore depressed chic.
but no.im no bimbo cuz i apparently make use of my brain cells 3/4 of my waking hour.
dun mess with me.